Friday, 18 June 2010
Ive been away camping the past few days, I'm in so much pain, my feet are fucked. blisters got infected. can barely walk. So i drank last night which probably didn't help at all, since I'm still a fucking idiot drunk.
So I was awake from 3 in the morning calling my mum, she didn't answer till about 6. I told her how much pain I was in, how I need a break from here, I just want to spend the weekend at 'boyfriends' just put my feet up till Monday, she was having none of it. Said if I 'run away' I can say goodbye to everything and not come back.
:( I just want one fucking weekend rest. She hung up on me, after I was shouting at her calling her names. I kind of lost the plot. Ended up lying on the floor crying my eyes out. Pulled 2 muscles in my legs too which doesn't help either.
'Boyfriend' even called my mum and said he was worried about me.
Why the fuck cant people just let things go, I don't see what the problem is.
I ate a piece of bread when I woke up this morning, fell asleep after fighting with my mum, and woke up at around 5 this evening and I'm still feeling shit..
Oh and I'm on 2 different antidepressants now..
Just had another 2 pieces of break and a hot chocolate... Really not good.
Much love.. :( x