Friday, 5 March 2010
Don't know why I fucking bother!
I'm so angry with everything! =@
hate my parents. HATE myself. hate everyone else.
Went to the doctor today, fucking idiots, honestly! I was waiting for months to get help for my anxiety and depression and they basically tell me to wait another few weeks for another appointment with someone else =@
I want to cry and scream, and cry till i don't have the energy anymore.
Why the FUCK is everything so shit all the time, why can't it just be good for once!
And to make it even better Ive just run out of money on my phone, can't put more on, can't talk to my boyfriend.
My stupid parents fault, for sending me away, means I can't see him, they are the reason I feel the way I do and then they go and make me feel bad about not coping with things. =@ :'(
Ive lost the weight I put on, I'm back to 53 kilos and I feel even worse. I'm disgusting and I can't stand this. I'm so angry and I can't help but cry. I don't know what to do.
I want to run away from everything. I cant even find the words to explain what I feel.